Haven't written for awhile...with good reason I suppose.
For the last month, I've found it very difficult to focus and to gain control of my thoughts.
My thoughts are like a homeless wanderer, constantly looking to settle down and gain some closure on there short-lived lives.
I will say this though...I think, actually, I am almost certain that my wandering days are coming to an end.
I have no control over the actions or words of others. Therefore, beating myself up over what they have said or done, or constantly rethinking and reevaluating situations, has proved to be more disasturous than helpful by far.
So, I will try and discontinue with those negative actions.

I have not felt this way about anyone...ever.
I have loved before, but not like this.
Every thought, every dream, is consumed by him.
My heart races profoundly at the sound of his voice...the touch of his hand...the touch of his lips.
Sure, it's not perfect. Of course there are things that need to be worked on, or that I wish were slightly different. But no relationship is perfect.
I just hope that this will continue to grow and be...be something positive and long-lasting.

Anyways...
got my hair done monday..like the results
started early on christmas shopping because i hate doing it all in december with the crowded malls and stuff...that sucks
got my money for scool..looking forward to going back in january
have to go back to highschool for one course which kinda sucks
and i have to work today..which realli realli sucks cuz i hate my job..but ah wels!!

as for me...i'm doing ok...im trying to take things slow..day by day...trying not to let certain people or things get to me...trying to put myself first...and it seems to be working so far.
but im in the mindset where i wish that he would see in my what i see in him...its hurtful when u feel that, in regards to emotions, that one person feels more strongly than the other does....but i guess that will come with time..hopefully!

ciao!